The future just called with some wisdom...
It said it's great there, so happy and fulfilling.
It said if you want to experience all those amazing things, the things of your dreams, then get your ass out of the past and start living today.
It said to start taking small steps to change things right now.
It said it knows how hard it is to start, how hard it is to step into something new, how hard it is to get motivated, but it'll be worth it in the end.
It said you're doing amazing. Your struggle is temporary, and all ends well.
It said take the first small steps right now and trust the process.
It said... breathe deep. Let go of the fear and anxiety. You are strong. And you'll be ok. Trust me.